They wanted me to tell you,

 

Today I was getting a massage. After the massage therapist flipped me over to lay on my back I was overwhelmed with gratitude for the amount of love and attention she was pouring into my body and because the massage felt so dang good. I love to look through the face hole when on my stomach and watch their feet as they shift around on the ground, almost as if the therapy is a dance. I decided to engage in reciprocation with my ability to show love. As I was on my back I opened up a stream of pure crystal light healing energy from above and asked that it rain on both of us for the remainder of the massage. To my surprise, my team of spirit guides started peeking through the opening from above. Imagine you are at the bottom of a water well and your group of friends is at the surface above looking down on you. It was all women. They were telling me how happy they were that I listened to the nudge to go and get a massage, that they arranged Bri ( my massage therapist ) be the one I encountered. They said this healing energy is exactly what she needs at this moment. That wasn't their emphasis though, they were cheeky and being silly saying “she’s finally listening to us,” ( in regards to just taking action on what my guides say) as they did little dances and arm movement. I smiled. It was funny and adorable. I love my guides so much. 

They said to remind everyone that it can be very uncomfortable to live within a human body. They understand this. That is why it is so important to take care of this vessel. When we get bogged down with pain, tension, restriction, dis-ease it is distracting from our mission. It can actually cause us to completely forget our mission for this incarnation and not advance as we and they wanted us to. They want me to remind you all that they can not interfere. They can give subtle nudges, clues, insight in various forms and suggestions but it is WE who have the ultimate and final choice in all matters concerning our lives here on earth. They wanted me to tell everyone that they wished and hoped that we would remember to play. That we would remember to laugh and relax and be grateful. That we take almost everything too seriously. That we have the best chance of contact and remembrance when we allow. On a quantum level our worry and stress only negatively contributes to the exact reason why we came here in the first place. We all have different missions, purpose and reason for this incarnation at this time with the groups you find yourselves with. 

I remember when I used to be so confused about being a human. side note - I didn't realize until now that was what was happening, but in hindsight it makes so much sense. I remember asking a man I was deeply ( so much drama of me to add deeply here ) “ in love with,”

“ I don't understand, what do people do in their off time, how do people just exist, what are people thinking about, am I like other people?” He had a funny kind of new age caveman mentality. His advice was “ Don’t believe in God, trust science only, fast everyday, lift heavy, drink black coffee, and don’t hang out with anyone you work with.” LOL! I remember trying out his methodology. I was “in love” with him because of the way he showed up. Grounded, stable, argumentative, sexual, not to be swayed, manly. He really turned me on. But his methodology didn't work for me. I tried not believing in God and that was total shit. I liked bougie coffee and I really liked some of the people I worked with! Nonetheless it was a great adventure trying these things out. 

I remember another time when again, I was “deeply in love,” with another man. Okay listen, I am a libra sun, which makes me a romance junkie. I am still figuring this out. This man was WILD. Literally lived on the wild side of everything. He scared the hell out of me while simultaneously making me feel more alive than maybe anyone I had ever hung out with. He just didn't care about things most people care about. But my nervous system couldn't handle that type of energy. It wasn't that it was chaotic, I never found him to be chaotic, it was more that he didn't understand or seem to have room for someone who wasn't willing to be on the edge a lot of the time. Or even more than that, he didn't see himself as an edge man and I was like, “LISTEN! you are way over the edge.” I couldn't keep up is a good way to put it. But I also learned so much about myself within the context of this situation and the spicy ways that I can expand from time to time. He was not expansive mentally, or did not show it, so I was able to pull at him in this way and show my “edgeness' ' like that. Ultimately it didn't work for either of our nervous systems. 

I did realize through these various romantic encounters ( I won't continue to name them here) that I enjoy a connection that feels a bit removed. That I “fall in love” with people when I enjoy observing them and learning about them. That life, for me, is so much about observation. I enjoy colliding with people who can help me satisfy my insatiable need to understand the human people. Hmmmmm I sometimes believe my mission is mostly information collection and I am very okay with that. It brings me great pleasure. 

All this to say that a formula for life is our own. You will not go out and get your formula by asking another human. These things are very unique and must be treated as highly individualized. I realized my formula is pretty loose and ever evolving. But I know what is contained inside my formula I chose, because I experiment with life and am always learning what works best for me. Sometimes encounters just won't work in a sustained way because separate formulas cannot co-exist. Could you imagine being a baking soda human in love with a vinegar human? It would be a constant mess, fizzing out, dripping all around. Messy. But hey, some of us desire mess, so whatever works for you. Just don't FORGET or I should say, try to REMEMBER that it is ALL teaching us something. And I have nothing but love for all of the scenarios in my life that helped me take the next step on the great staircase. I have fond love for all the men and women I’ve had the pleasure of learning from. 

The guides want to end with one thing. They want me to tell you that it is conditioning to believe we shouldn't spend attention and resources to keep our bodies optimal. The more optimal, the more light you can hold, the more you can remember, the more you can help. So, take care of your body and love this life even if you have to grin and bear it at first, the smile will become more habitual because your heart will begin to sing as it feels those facial muscles flex in a whole new way. SAT NAM.